up to date in a few sentences.

Since 2010 we went to court in November and I lost. the Judge made a ruling based on all the information Jonathan and I gave her. It seems sad that i will only see bella for about 8 days a month, but its been happening now almost 2 years. Its crazy what you can get used to. God defiantly has been my strength and my hiding place the past 5 years throughout this mess i made for myself. Jon and I didn'

t talk for an entire year, sure maybe a couple times here and there but nothing in depth. I have tried to get a long keep my head down and just love Bella all i can with the time i do have with her. She will start kindergarten in the fall and Jon has said he would only like her to be with me for a week in the summer and every other holiday. this information would have flipped me for a loop into crazy town 2 years ago but now i have seen heard and been through it all by this boy that nothing surprises me. if we have to go back to court i will ask to keep it every other weekend. we've been doing that for so long and now, its all Bella knows. why take that away from her because its a pain to drive every other friday and sunday night an hour and half. who knows what will happen in the fall but i know that God loves her and that she has a lot of people who care for her. ill try to update more often. i have had some funny times i wish i had recorded.